A Drop of Dye in a Glass of Water

I’m speaking in front of crowds of people. I’m acting, teaching, making a fool of myself for everyone to see. I’m being pushed to all my uncomfortable limits… and I’m loving every bit of it.

I only experience true joy when I am challenging myself, surprising myself, and becoming proud of myself.  I only experience true joy when I see my joy spread to other people, when I know they have received some benefit from my efforts.

Why is this?   I think it’s because I love life more when I give to other peiple, even if it’s hard at times. I think I receive more when I give more. Not in a victimized way, not anymore. I’m giving because deep down I actually want to- not because the act is expected from me. I’m exhausted and I’m happy. It’s all worth it.

Maybe some days my effort feels wasted or ignored or ineffective. But those days when I put everything I have out on the table, the days when I hold no part of me back, reaching as far as I can reach, I lean back and admire what I have done, and what others have done because I extended all of myself.

I think my mind is supposed to be shared. My ideas, my love- what use are they if I keep them hidden from veiw?  They have the potential to be a drop of red dye in a glass of water- dye that instantly spreads and is absorbed by the surrounding matter. That matter is the mind of each one of my students. And that dye is every thought I’ve ever had, capable of innundating the minds of others, and capable of so much more than I can predict.

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I'm the mother of a 1 year old, a wife, and a anthropology grad living in Beijing.

13 Comments on "A Drop of Dye in a Glass of Water"

    So glad to hear you’re enjoying yourself out there. You should be proud of yourself indeed, and keep spreading your knowledge, love and light!!

    Testing limits especially in personal circumstances is a great thing. If it wasn’t for pushing my limits and comfort zones I would have performed in front 8000 people a few weeks ago. So I agree with you, keep it up lovely x 🙂

    This is such a great reminder and so true. As a teacher, no matter how things go, I never want to regret giving my all and doing my best. We never know the impact we have, and giving life (not just teaching) our all is always worth it in and of itself. Thanks for the reminder! 🙂

    You know you are an adult when, instead of being the student you become the teacher. For the first time, you realize that your time to take is over and your time to give back is upon you. Most people take years to realize that this is the key to happiness…they just keep taking. Whet they don’t realize is that they get so much more by giving. Look at you. Traveling abroad, becoming loved and respected by strangers and friends alike. Experiences that help you see the greater world in all its beauty. I say that you are fortunate, however, I know that you burned for this time. You sought out the opportunity. You could feel yourself becoming hollow and you fought back….and you changed your direction. You are going to do so much that you never imagined. I look forward to reading about it.

    Congratulations, kid…you are now the teacher!

    Now….tell us a story.

    Your comment means so much to me. I can’t tell you how appreciative I am of what you said. I feel like you see me.. Thank you for making my day, even my week. I will read this over and over again. Thank you so much

    You’re welcome, Rachelle, but I don’t see you, exactly. I see myself. We are all different but very much the same at the core. Feel free to email me if you want to share more. Keep doing what you’re doing and, like I said, tell us a story.

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